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The Deceived ~

I’ve had my share, as most people have, of falling in love with someone only to put your heart, your soul, your 100% into that person and expecting the same to be returned unto you.  You invest months, maybe years into the relationship, and you think this person is “the One”, and that you’ll be together forever and always and live happily ever after with that “white picket fence” I’ve always been searching for.  He tells you he’s your soul mate, that he’s always loved you and/or will always love you.  He does everything for you, the romance, the love, the trust and maybe even the faithful.  But, eventually, things fall apart between you, and you begin to find out things during and even after the break up that you never could’ve seen while you were together.  He, indeed, was unfaithful.  Or he was a liar in those things he told you to keep you complacent in his life.

 And this is not only for women, but also for men… but I’m writing from my perspective as a woman who has lived these circumstances perhaps 5 or 6 times so far in my life.

 Being happily married, as I have been for 14 years now, does not exclude you from being vulnerable.  As much as you can try to put these painful experiences away, sometimes they can seep back into your mind, unwanted and unwelcome, and they bring all those old feelings back, including those of mistrust and hurt.  Sometimes you wonder if someday you’ll be experiencing that same deception again in the future with your current love.

 Our church began a series on marriage 3 weeks ago in which our Pastor stated “to really be fulfilled in life, you have to find The One”.  How do you find “The One”?  How do you know that he is “The One”, and not just another liar, cheater and unscrupulous person in your life?  There is only one way to know for sure and you need to know where to look.  He won’t be found in the nearest nightclub, or in the gym where you work out.  He won’t be found at work (yours or his), and he certainly won’t be found in your past.  If you want to find “The One”, you need to look to the Bible because it all starts there.  You see, Jesus is “The One”, the only one that you need to get through this life and beyond.  Once you find Him, the rest falls into place, and your Number Two will too.  My husband doesn’t mind being “Number Two” because we share the same “Number One”.

 2 Corinthians 5:17

“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new.”

 Philippians 1:6

“He who began a good work in you, will be faithful to complete it.”

 Admittedly, I still struggle… I do.  It’s pretty much a daily battle for me to rely and trust in “The One” in my life, even though I know in my heart and soul that He is there, always will be, will never let me down and loves me unconditionally.  My “Number Two” promises the same, but is human and, therefore, imperfect (as am I).  However, my husband was brought into my life by “The One”, so I know I’m in good hands here in the world.

 I guess my point is that I just want to share “The One” with you… with everyone I know.  His name is “power, breath and living water… such a marvelous mystery.”  For anyone who knew me “then” (pre-1998) and “now” that I’ve accepted Jesus as my Savior and God as my Father, you can plainly SEE THE DIFFERENCE in me since I accepted life.  And the difference is for the better.  If you want to know more about me “then”, read my ongoing Revealed blog posts, and you’ll see where I’ve come from and how I got here.  For anyone who is living a “hard” life or having seemingly insurmountable problems/issues, there is a way out of that darkness and into the light.  I am living proof.  It happened for me and it can happen for you, if you want it to.  The work starts with a small prayer, it’s that easy.  And it’s worth the hard work afterwards to have the life that God wants you to have.  It’s not all wealth and roses, but it’s good… at last it’s good.

Sunset on the water of life.

Revealed: Introduction ~

It’s time.  This is it.  For so many years, friends and family have been encouraging me to write a book about my life’s experiences thus far.  It’s taken until now to finally feel the inspiration from God to put myself out there, after all, I have nothing more to hide.  I thought telling about my abortion at age 14 (Forgiven and Set Free) would’ve been the hardest thing to reveal, and I’ve done that.  It’s time to “come clean” with the rest, and pray that I can help someone else in the process.

I guess I would classify my story as surviving, what some could call, hell on earth, then finding my spirituality and turning my entire life around.  As shocking as some of my reveal may seem to some, it’s meant to encourage others to not give up, and to listen when God speaks to you ~ and He WILL, if you let Him, if you listen.  He can bring you through any circumstance, if you trust in Him.

“With God, all things are possible.”  ~ Matthew 19:26  

So, I’m not writing a book, exactly.  I’m going to blog about it.  Each post will be like a chapter, with this being The Beginning.  I’m not going to change any names “to protect the innocent”, but I will use initials out of respect for those who deserve it, and for those who have passed away ~ and, yes, even for those who don’t deserve it (respect)!  I make no apologies for what I’m going to reveal.  It is the truth ~ my truth, my perspective.  I will attempt to write each chapter in chronological succession, but I will be writing as my inspiration tells me.  I trust He will not steer me wrong.

Before I begin with the Chapters, I want to notably make clear that I had what I consider to be an awesome childhood.  I loved my parents, even though I didn’t know that until it was too late.  I love my siblings ~ all 4 are older than me, but not necessarily wiser… maybe in “some” ways.  I believe I had a “typical” childhood of the ‘60’s and ‘70’s.  My parents were loving people, albeit strict and they believed in corporal punishment, as do I.  We vacationed as a family each year, went to the company Christmas party at the Landmark Theatre in Syracuse, I learned to wash dishes by hand before I could reach the sink using a step stool.  We grew up in rural Upstate New York, and strung toilet paper at the “four corners of Plainville” on Halloween night, then watched as the tractor trailers drove through them and blew their horn.  My story doesn’t really begin until I became a pre-teen/teenager.  I’ll get there.

I also want my four amazing children to know, before I even begin, that I love them above and beyond anything they can ever imagine.  I would not change one aspect of my life, as that’s what it took to bring them into this world and get us to where we are today.  They have survived the tyranny, chaos and abuse I raised them under, and have become incredible adults with gorgeous children of their own.

Lastly, and most importantly, I must acknowledge my husband, Al (whose name I won’t initial), for coming into my life just when I needed him most.  I must confess that it was Al that brought God into my life… or was that vice versa?  *smiles*  They came into my life simultaneously, and I have been abundantly blessed ever since.

“Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.”  2 Corinthians 5:17

A starred sunset over Lake Ontario from Brennan Beach RV Park & Campground near Pulaski, New York.
http://www.sthomasphotos.com or Viewsinfinitum.com

Oh, and the photo?  I’m borrowing it from another site:  www.sthomasphotos.com   I also want to recommend the blog:   http://viewsinfinitum.com/ .  This particular photo is a favorite of mine and has the effect of calming my mind and my soul, allowing me to reconnect with my Lord and God when stress is particularly abundant.  This photographer has many such “calming” photos, many involving waterfalls, nature and landscapes.  The blog is well-written and insightful, always stirring my imagination and emotions.  Worth a look.